Not lost, but not found

I didn't lose you
But I can't find you
You are lost
I don't know where you reside

You're not there

I don't think anyone knows where you are

I think you are stuck

Somewhere in the past

Stuck

In what used to be
Stuck in what was
In what has been done to you

You can't let go

Of anything it seems
It appears your progress has thwarted
Not moved at all

Seems only seems

As what do I know
I only know how you look
As others see you

But when they stop short

At your outrageous flare
I don't stop short at you
I go past it into you

You just can't handle it

That's not my fault
You can't handle you
So you can't handle me

Living a lie
Always living a lie
I bet She doesn't know
As if she does know

Know the truth

Really how well is She?
And you think I am unwell
I don't suffer as you do

Unless you count

All my suffering without you
That burns me up
Pangs of pain run through my soul

I long for an end to this

This fucking glimpse
As I have never been more wrong
Still so horribly wrong

To ever think

I could
Or would even want to
Live with out you

What liars we often are

To ourselves
And to each other
You my dear are the best

But just like Jekyll

Hyde will eventually win out
Take over
Analiate the lie

Consume even you

So you won't be able to hide
Inside this fake, superficial life
You created for yourself

It will eventually fall apart

Be destroyed
By you
They always are

And if you were to once

Admit the truth
In years, once
Admit the truth

You would see

You're not happy
Or fulfilled
Only sad and without

And to make my earlier prediction come true

You are bored

With a doppleganger wanna be

As close to me as you could find

But she doesn't have the class
The style
Or the looks

She even tries to follow in my footsteps

I am the bad ass you want

I am everything you need
You only deny yourself
And you call me a tease

At least I am here

Been here
Still here
Admitting how it really is

And I think if you could once

Turn and face yourself
See how you feel
Acknowledge how you still love me

Take on the truth deep inside

Really truly be at peace
You would most definitely see
You are found within me