Veriest Life

If I want my life to happen

I have to let it
I am the Queen
Of ripping my own heart out
 

Whenever I get close

I always push far away
So others think
It's what they want
 

But I hold all the cards

I am in control
At least of myself
And the life around me

Sometimes, I need to let it be

Let it be
Let it be
Letting it be is hard for me

I see the point

The reason for it all
Pushing me further
Keeping me sane

I get the deeper meaning

And the profound reasons
Life is not just a moment
It is as series of them
 

With all the life lived

The good inside
Makes you stronger
It keeps you on the right path
 

Trying to change

I get what I am to do
Or at least supposed to
It carries me through
 

Keeping my pace

Quick and purposeful
I don’t question
It all anymore

 

But executing it
Really making it shine
Seems harder for sure
As am I really sublime

 

Just pretending at times

With the veriest kind
Life that has gone awry
By my deed seldom dry
 

It is for certain with this fantasy

That I live only for me
But I am not to be honest
As things don't change

Simply catastrophe
Was all a ruse
People run from what they don't get
And I am left to crawl inside

 

Inside where it is safe

I think
And I don't have to deal
But others are left to feel the unreal
 

A perfect situation

One where I can coincide
All that I am afraid of
In living my life
 

I need to let it go

Let it go
Let it go
Must be something I can learn
 

As something deep inside

Beckons me forth
Keeping me alive
Pushing me towards

To the unknown life

In a real and different space
Exciting possibly
Exactly what I want
 

If only I could
Choose it and let it be
Let it go
Have the courage to see

 

What’s right in front of me
Will become more than just a dream
It will in time
Come to me