Nothing
does
People
come
People
go
I
am still here
You
are not
You
left
But
didn't take yourself
I
can't see a reason
Why
I should continue
Why
do I go on wanting more?
It
seems so pointless
I
don't want to come out
Not
any longer
I
just sit inside
It
doesn't bother me
Not
anymore
It
used to
When
I had hope you cared
It
used to drive me crazy
But
too much has happened
Too
many have fled
Or
disappeared
Too
many are unable
Unable
to be who I need
Why
do I think they will ever be?
They
have failed me so many times
I
just don't fall for it anymore
Not
like I used to
But
still I seek
Answers
don't come
They
don't flood my mind
Except
for you
You
sit inside still
I
made you leave
You
won't
So
I locked myself out
I
can't look at you
Not
anymore
I
can't look
I
can't feel my own heartbeat
I
can't decide what is important
I
feel lost
Without
I
am sure I am missing out
I
know there are things
That
I feel
That
are important
But
I don't know them
They
aren't obvious
They
are hidden inside
They
aren't seen by me
Am
I sad?
Angry?
Lonely?
I
just don't know
It
doesn't make sense
But
it is what I must do
So
I don't feel the overwhelming love
I
have for you
I
try to move forward
But
the circles still persist
I
try and leave
But
am still glued here
The
fucking irony
The
fucking point
It's
all lost on me
It
doesn't seem to matter
You
would say
I
haven't changed
Or
am still the same
You
can't deal
But
you would only see
What
it is you want to see
That
is normal for you
Doesn't
make it true
Rotting
in my prison
You
left me here
Just
so you could play house
Pretend
you don't care
You
act like you are right
And
EVERYONE else is wrong
You
can't even face the truth
Won't
face it
Cause
it faces you
But
I am left to remember
And
you wonder why I don't blink
Why
I shudder at the mention
I
can't look at you
But
still can't look away
I
force my heads movement
Turn
turn turn
I
make my eyes shut
You
only appear inside
I
walk away
You
follow me
Is
this still really my fault?
It
seems I am not the only one
Who
can't let go
Can't
walk away
It's
obvious you see
Cause
if you did let go of me
I
should be able to leave
But
I can't
With
every ounce of try
That
I have inside
It
only depletes me
Leaves
me left to deal
I
push forward alone
And
your right on my heels
I
can't break free
I
try and try
It
only takes me around
Up
and down
But
always I still come back
And
you are staring at me
Stop
fucking staring
Or
at least say hi
Apologize
for what you did
Admit
you were very wrong
But
that never happens either
It's
just in my mind
I
create these moments
They
create me at times
Where
you are actually human
Like
real and giving a shit
Like
you used to be
Like
the woman I know
But
it doesn't happen
You
aren't there
So
many have joined you
Was
it something I said?
It
just doesn't matter
I
am trapped
You
did it
I
am helpless to your will
You
hold all the cards
I
am out of options
Nothing
left to play
I
can only sit and wait
If
you would just look
And
truly see me
You
would see
I
am still exactly what you need
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