Darkness Consuming

Vast consuming darkness

Takes over 

Makes a good try

To get you enslaved 

If you let it 

It will have its way

Snuffing you out 

With all the gray

It will make you think

It's you 

It's your fault 

But only darkness lies that way

Looking past it 

You find the truth 

Keeping your eye on it

Makes you stronger 

Sitting in the dark

Alone

Waiting for a glimmer 

To shine the way

Does it even matter anymore

My heart is again in pieces 

The way it's supposed to be 

I guess 

At least it's how 

People think 

Fear behind pretense 

Life behind walls

It's not like it didn't just happen

Not like I wasn't affected 

Maybe I should be grateful

People are so screwed up

Does that make me safe?

The damage has already been done 

It's a rotten world

And keeps getting confirmed 

Knowing I deserve better 

Knowing this doesn't make it easier 

It doesn't have to be that way

If unconsciousness didn't ruin the day

My heart bursts with pain

I am not happy 

I am glad to be alone

It's so much better than all the games 

I don't want them

But not this way

The truth should have a say

Still hoping it finds its way

But crazy lives a long life 

And fights for control 

I don't expect crazy to let go

Like I didn't expect I would 

But it's the way it is 

At least I am no longer tied 

Tied to the way it was

Tied to the lies unreal 

Taken off the shelf 

When wanted near

And put back in my place 

When it got too real 

Kept at arms length 

Just to fulfill 

That piece inside 

That didn't accept the lies 

The part that knew the truth 

That needed the moment to be real

But fear has a way 

Of taking over 

And I give it up now 

Letting go 

Is good and right for me

It's not like I need to stay 

Outside the walls I am free

Outside the walls is my life 

I have been let go

And the bounty is right there 

I can fly away 

Without ever looking back 

It didn't have to be so wrong 

So right 

I just couldn't pretend anymore 

For peace makings sake 

It could have been received

A better way 

But it's not how it goes 

It makes life unknown 

And I carry on

Still carry on 

Not like I am accused

Of the crime I committed

Was telling the truth

Speaking out against the dark 

And it's only those who are hiding 

That hate the light 

Only those who are criminals 

That hate the law 

It's only those who don't want truth

Who lie and lie 

And when you speak out against it 

You are tied at the stake 

But it doesn't make them right 

It doesn't make you wrong 

They still choke on their shit 

No matter if you're alive or not 

So I would rather be viewed as dead 

Than dead inside

As I can be happy 

Once the fire subsides

The smoke will eventually clear 

Life will go on

I don't regret that 

I don't regret choosing what I want 

I don't want to play along

Keeping myself small

Just to get along

It's harder than this 

Harder than life 

I just wish being banished felt better 

Being betrayed has more delight 

I am however, strong enough