Nah I really do believe

I feel you so strong
Right now I do
I feel this awesome love for you
One that has taken me time to let be

As I wanted you to leave
Because I felt such pain
And I wanted it to stop
And it wouldn't

At times I would

Catch a glimpse of the love
And it made me happy
And it felt right

And I held onto you

And didn't want to let you go
For a second I was free
And not suffering

But it scared me

So I pushed you away
Cause you told me
You were never coming back

But, You never left
I felt you then
And I feel you now
And I am grateful

A long time ago
About a year
I spent about nine months
Trying to get rid of you

I kicked you out of my heart
I let you go a thousand times
I screamed and yelled
I cried please leave

And yet you persisted inside me

For which I am grateful
As I never wanted you to leave
I held onto you tight

But oh I tried to make you flee

I even set a bomb off inside me
You remained
But it affected me

And eventually I gave up

And let you be
And when I did
My suffering stopped

As my heart was free
To love you
And to love me
Just be

I am happy in all moments

That I let our love be
And I have noticed that since we are texting
I have made the most progress

More in four weeks
Then what I did in a year
You make happy
You do

I guess I am done denying it

As it feels like a rightful part of me
And the love we had
Has grown

And I am not keeping it in place

I am not making it
I don't have a spell on you
I am victim of it too

I just can't run from you anymore

I just couldn't close our door
I feel so freed and happy
And who I was created to be

And I can't

As much as you might say you would like
Stop or go away
It's not up to me

I tried

And now I am done
So this is me
And I am glad to meet you

As it is you

I am in love with
You I choose
Jenn