Be still my soul

Quiet
Peace
Brings about the truth
Be still my soul

Loudness
Anger
Fear
Drives it a away

Out of so many others
You picked me
And I feel like such a failure
And try so hard to end it all

It feels so hard, all the time
To let ANYTHING be
How do I make this
Or get to where I am going

Nothing is as it seems I know for sure
I have ran so far and for so long
And all the while you still remain with me
Do I deserve your love, my creator?

Why do you want mine?
I am wrong all of the time
I fail as much as the many stars you placed above my head
How can this be what you want

Be still my soul
Be still
Believe and it shall be
All good is coming

Turmoil
Loudness
Make it all end please
I am not good

You ask to much of me
There is no end
And it is all I want
Be still my soul

Shaking
Freaking out
Facing the real dangers that lurk around me
Failing to succeed

A purpose
It is all for a mighty purpose
But in the darkness at the bottom
I sit inside my soul and wait

Be still my soul
Believe in what you are told
God had made promises
And God has never lied

The purpose lingers in the space
Trapped like a to do list
I don't fucking care about the purpose
Until the moment is over
Until everything is clear again

I feel strapped in, caged
With my hands tied behind my back
Like it is supposed to happen
And I mustn't stop it

I see out of foggy eyes
But a second pair illuminates me
And still I persist inside the darkness
And the moment lingers

Be still my soul
Quiet
Peaceful
It is all Coming in close now

I freak out
Am supposed to
I come close
But now understand

The purpose is driven home
I hitch a ride
As I have chosen correctly
The light and love is my choice

And after the objective is realized
I can finally rest and breathe
But it is not long before another comes knocking
And wishing I could fly changes nothing


July 27, 2009